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The True Agony of Defeat

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My dreams haves smashed and burned right before my eyes.
An infant watches as another reality turns to lies.
Struck in pain not being able to move,
Watching it all burn killing me – knowing there is nothing I can do.
The point where blood has left me and hope has gone a rye.
Just a cold empty feeling, just waiting… to die.
My dreams were smashed and burned revealing all my fears.
And now all I can do is writing my feelings with tears.
For the longest time defeat has always one.
But for the first time the true agony of defeat has begun.
A twist to break your spirit and a stab to break your heart.
A phrase to make you scream, and a comment to burn your art.
Do you know the feeling? Of what you thought was there is not?
What you thought was true has deceived you, and was a false answer you had sought.
I never felt this while getting kicked out of school or when I was put in jail,
I learned from those experiences but from this one I have failed.
My plans have rotted and my beliefs have quit.
My faith is lost and all I know call me a twit.
But I know I must live on even with my head held low.
But my heart and mind so heavy I really don’t want to go.
There is no one waiting for me.
There future there.
Yet I must continue,
To make my efforts no longer bare.
It is sad to die alone
And suicide is sadder still.
But nothing could be sadder than killed by his own will.
So I carry as I am weary to make sure my life is fulfilled.
Oh, how I curse the true agony of defeat.
hey this is all true and happening to me now at 11:35 PM on July 2nd 2007. i am in tears writng this as i was writing that. i was just informed that the play i wrote for my magician frend Marcus Hill was delayed till summer of 2008 and that they dont want me. but Marcus does so i do have hope. but my plans have been crushed and im sorry to those i said i would go visit. i really was going to do it! but now i cant for a whole year! but i will then. so hold tight. he said he might pay for me to meet my gf in california but that would b it! but that is good enough for me... i am really depressed.........
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01Blaze01's avatar
omg thats so sad it makes me want 2 cry and im so sorry that that happend 2 u i hope u fell butter althogh i can c that it will probubly b hard 4 u